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Comatose

1 min read
Wet lashes and broken hearts
Unfinished and pointless starts
We say hello just to say goodbye
But why start when you won't even try

"Are you okay?"
"Just fine" I say
Because when I try to say what's really there
I know the truth...You never cared

Red wrists and broken self-esteems
Wrapped in death and comatose dreams
We felt the burn of our last goodbye
I tried to warn you...I shouldn't have tried...
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Chaotic Bliss

2 min read
Many years ago
I was a little girl and
My heart was broken
Into pieces

I lay there crying on my bedspread
And I lay there bleeding on the floor red
'Cuz I

Had decided then and there
I was spent
I'm dead...

Don't wake me up
Don't save me from this nightmare
'Cuz it's sweeter than reality

Don't pull me out
Don't take me from this chaos
'Cuz it's softer than the agony~
Misery~
Calamity~

[....]

Not too long ago
I was a little broken
I'm sorry
My apologies

I'm on the hospital bed sheets
And I lay there dying here the screaming
Feel the bleeding~
'Cuz I

Had been wishing
Now my wish is granted
I'm dead...

Don't wake me up
Don't save me from this nightmare
'Cuz it's sweeter than reality

Don't pull me out
Don't save me from the chaos
'Cuz it's softer than the agony~
Misery~
Calamity~

Don't save me!

Can't wake me up
Can't save me from this nightmare
'Cuz I'm gone from this reality

Can't pull me out
Can't save me from the chaos
'Cuz it's softer than the agony~
Misery~
Calamity~

It's all because of me!
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My spirit is torn
My heart is broken
My trust is worn
And my love is spoken

I wish I hadn't said it
Because it didn't mean shit
Now my days are spent lit
As I'm trying to forget

My smile is fake
My tears are true
My love you did take
But I'm gone because of you

I wish I'd ended it
Because I didn't mean shit
Now my days are spent crying
Just cutting to forget

The light of my eyes is dim
The blood on my blade is thin
Though suicide is a sin
Drowning water is all I want to be in
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I woke up today.
I was crying.
I had a nightmare. Again.
Thanks daddy.
After I cried. I sat there.
For hours.
When I woke the first time
It was 7 A.M.
After I sat for hours doing nothing
Not even thinking.
It was past 3 P.M.
I'm broken.
I'm broken.
I'm broken.
I'm nothing anymore.
I have one reason not to kill myself.
I made a promise.
Please...
Make me a promise...
Let that promise be:
You can commit. Whenever you want.
And let me let go
Of all of my broken-ness
And let me be gone.
Let this world be rid of my unpleasant stench of life.
Let me stop wasting oxygen.
Let me do the world a favor and let me disappear.
Leave. Evaporate. Rewind.
Let. Me. Die.
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Oh, Daddy

1 min read
I just realized something.
A very painful something.
Love is rare. You only find it in your soul mate.
And your parents.
And everyone else is either ignorant, stupid, or pretending.
But you know what?
The one person that should love me most...Didn't.
Doesn't.
And never will.
Everyone says he does.
But they're wrong.
If he did
He would've stopped himself.
He would've lowered his hand.
Dropped the belt.
Stopped my tears.
Lowered his voice.
Calmed himself.
He wouldn't have hit the counter
So hard everything bounced up into the air.
He would've said he was sorry.
Shown emotion.
He would've done something other than scream at me.
For things he did wrong.
Daddy would've loved his little girl.
Daddy wouldn't have made his little girl cry.
Daddy...
Wouldn't...
Have...
Hit...
His...
Little...
GIRL!!!!
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